As Mimi and Sheena make up with each other, Ari, on the other hand, still struggles over her loss of Seiran.
With Ari feeling down as she remembers during a rainy day, it’s clear that Ari hasn’t gotten over Seiran’s death. When Esther passes by, her bag was dropping pieces of candy. It’s not until Ari notices and I find it funny how Esther reacts and even mentions the 3 second rule. After all, the candy was on the floor for over three seconds, but wrapped, so does the rule even apply here? As Ari ticks up candies, I find it funny how Esther asks if Sheena and Mimi are going out, although she thought of it as a mother and daughter type of relationship.
However, when Ari sees Sheena and Mimi getting along very well, she becomes jealous. It’s not too surprising, given that she lost her lover. Esther notices as Ari grasped the piece of candy as if she were going to squeeze it. However, it’s clear that she went too far. Ari said it’s nothing as the school lost a lot of students from the war. She walks away.
The next day, Mimi and Sheena ran into Ari as they noticed how cloudy it was. When Ari saw Sheena and Mimi holding hands, she realized she hadn’t gotten over her loss. That is when the bell rings. Funny how class is going on while Mimi is talking loudly to Sheena. Suddenly Ari lost her concentration as she imagines Seiran taking notes during class. It’s obvious she misses her watching her while Seiran doesn’t notice while not paying attention. Funny how Mimi waved to Ari during class, which reminded Ari of her loss. She decides not to eat with Seiran and Sheena after class.
Ari knows that Mimi and Sheena are worried about her. Still, Ari has more reminiscing of Seiran when she came to close the window, as Ari is enjoying the open window with the rain. During the middle of the night, she couldn’t sleep, so she went to Seiran’s empty bed and lay on it. It seems nothing has changed as she doesn’t know how to get over it.
The next day, Ari was at the church as Esther ran in with her wet raincoat. She joins Ari. Esther wants to apologize, but Ari said it’s her fault. Ari mentions she shared her struggles of losing Seiran and that nothing she can do can help her overcome it. Ari asked how it’s like fighting alongside someone she loves to Esther. Apparently, Esther finds the feeling reassuring as Ari admits she never went out to battle with Seiran. She only smiled when Seiran was about to take the exam or get deployed, but she doesn’t regret it as it’s too late to get an answer.
Of course, Ari recalled the memory of Ari and Seiran being soaking wet, and Seiran put her wet school uniform on Ari as she thought Ari felt cold and made a big dash to the school while it’s raining. While the deployment bell eventually rang, Esther wasn’t called up, so they talked through the grounds, and even the gate that leads to the outside world, which is dangerous. Funny how they still got a cold after this. We learn Esther lost her first love and went through the same thing.
In the end, Ari eventually cried as she felt that her inability to get over losing her love made her feel pathetic and caused trouble with her friends as she avoided them. Esther understands that it’s tough accepting reality, but she believes Ari wants to look her best for the person she loves. Funny how Ari wants to do the same running thing as she did with Seiran. From the look of it, when Ari asks Mimi and Sheena if they had dinner, as she wants to have dinner with them, at least this is a sign that she is accepting reality.
Final Thoughts
Kimi ga Shinu made Koi wo Shitai is an interesting series, not just because of the yuri, but also the premise. With a bleak future of orphaned children being sent off to battle, they may die in battle in a war that never ends. While the series focuses more on the relationships instead of battles in the war, this leads to interesting development of Sheena’s relationship with Mimi. While Mimi is childish and good at fighting, it’s interesting to see her character develop as she befriends Sheena.
As expected, it’s a slow-developing pairing as Sheena develops feelings for Mimi. There are plenty of cute moments in that. Of course, this means that Sheena cares a lot more for Mimi, that she doesn’t want Mimi to get hurt. It worries her when she comes back in a bloodied and dismembered bag as she saw Mimi that she really comes out against Mimi fighting in battle, even getting into conflict over Mimi who thinks it’s best to carry the burden so others won’t get hurt.
Still, it’s interesting how Mimi grows close to Sheena and helps open her up while befriending Ari and Seiran. While Mimi was reckless so she could come back early to spend time with Sheena, she eventually cleaned up and hid the blood cover robe to make it seem that things were going well, when in reality, not so much. That is until Sheena found out and got into an argument. It’s all part of Mimi discovering the social aspects that she wasn’t able to experience when she was in isolation. That of course includes the sad aspects such as losing someone close from war.
That said, the characters are interesting. Sure, the yuri pairings are obvious with Sheena and Mimi, along with Ari and Seiran. That comes with a lot of lovely moments, including kissing scene or rather, to heal each other. Sure, the moments with Sheena and Mimi are nice, but so are Ari and Seiran. This is why Seiran’s eventual killed in action hits so hard, given all the red flags. It was interesting to see how it affected Mimi, who hadn’t had experience losing someone, while Ari struggled over getting over it, as she had been close with her for a long time.
Overall, Kimi ga Shinu made Koi wo Shitai, with its wonderful production and interesting take on yuri with some dark fantasy, makes it enjoyable to watch. Although it’s not likely we’ll get a second season, as we see with most yuri adaptations not getting any, it really shows the harsh realities of living as an orphan during an endless war. Not to mention, the idea of being immortal and being sent to fight every time is probably not something one should wish for.
(Also known as I Want to Love You Till Your Dying Day)
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