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When talking about grief, many only discuss grieving what has transitioned in the physical sense. There\u2019s very little conversation about the kinds of losses that don\u2019t come with funerals or grief in other forms, such as grieving the ending of a relationship, whether romantic, platonic, or familial. Grieving a past version of oneself, or letting go of the life you thought you\u2019d be living. There are many forms of grief \u2013 all of them painful in their own way.<\/p>\n
As I finally start to grieve and accept the ending of my two closest friendships, I am left with so many thoughts, feelings, and memories. I am left wondering if walking away was the right decision. Maybe it\u2019s the pain surfacing, but there are days when I miss my sisters. Yet, as I reflect on the last few months of my relationships with them, I feel both sorrow and anger over the way I was treated. Over the way they stopped showing up. Over the way my energy + effort weren\u2019t reciprocated. Over the quiet ache of feeling unvalued. I chose to silently walk away because staying in a space where those connections no longer felt aligned wasn\u2019t serving me. I don\u2019t necessarily regret my decision; a part of me just wishes there could have been a different outcome.<\/p>\n
As I focus on truly accepting + letting go, I think I\u2019ll begin opening myself up to cultivating new friendships.<\/p>\n
These are some affirmations I\u2019ve been journeying with:<\/p>\n