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This month marks the centenary of Mishima’s birth so it felt like a good time to read his gay coming-of-age modern classic first published in 1949. Reading anything by this controversial author feels tricky when knowing about his extreme political views and dramatic death committing ritual suicide after engaging in a failed coup. That certainly cast a shadow over my experience of this book as the draw towards death is often openly discussed \u201cI somehow looked forward to death impatiently, with sweet expectation.\u201d Yet, I also tried to read this autobiographical novel on its own terms as the author wrote it while he was still in his early twenties. In some ways its shockingly confessional in its male protagonist’s raw desire for other men and in other ways he comes across as oddly lacking in self-awareness. <\/p>\n
The book presents the tortured musings and philosophical reflections of a young man named Kochan. He feels increasingly alienated and isolated from the society around him to the point where his entire life becomes a performance. Throughout his youth he both desires muscular men and wishes to become them. However, as a boy frequently beset by illness who lives in a society where homosexuality isn’t publicly acceptable his desire morphs into violent fantasies and repression. So he learns to present an artificial front to other people: \u201cwhat people regarded as a pose on my part was actually an expression of my need to assert my true nature, and that it was precisely what people regarded as my true self which was a masquerade.\u201d It’s moving how the author describes the process of suppressing same-sex desire and a naturally flamboyant personality which is something many gay people feel pressured to do from an early age. Instead of embracing his nature Kochan becomes fixated on trying to desire and love women. The later part of the novel concerns his relationship with a friend’s sister named Sonoko. Unsurprisingly, this doesn’t result in a fulfilling romance. <\/p>\n
Perhaps if I read this novel when I was younger I would have been more drawn to its often circular thought patterns, convoluted logic and relentless self-absorption. It’s only natural that this young man should be so focused on his own preoccupations and desperate desire to understand himself. But a lot of his thought process came to feel repetitive and tiring. Since he’s coming of age in Japan during WWII this naturally looms large yet it’s something that’s infrequently commented upon. Perhaps because he was living through it he wasn’t compelled to describe it and life just carried on as normal until points of crisis. Nevertheless, his almost complete lack of interest for these larger events or the welfare of his schoolmates and family comes across as irritatingly callous. At one point it’s mentions that his sister dies but this only prompts him to melodramatically reflect \u201cI derived a superficial peace-of-mind from the discovery that even I could shed tears.\u201d I longed to get more insight into his family and the precarious position of Sonoko after she goes on to get married. But, since the narrative doesn’t extend any empathy outside the concerns of its protagonist, it was difficult for me to get past the growing frustration I felt towards this inward-gazing conflicted young man. <\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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