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I wrote this article just one year after I the breakup of my marriage back in 2010.\u00a0 I booked my trip to India with Explore and I travelled with a wonderful group of people, and whilst it\u2019s a clich\u00e9, India truly was a life-changing experience for me. My children had chosen to cut me out of their lives, I was being bullied in work and I was floating around in a (prescription) drug induced haze following an emotional breakdown.\u00a0 I needed a change and I needed it quickly if I were to begin to rebuild my life and my self-esteem<\/a><\/strong>.<\/p>\n Things are very different now but I like to revisit this theme periodically to remind myself that despite how people might appear on the outside we never know the whole story about what\u2019s going on in someone\u2019s mind.<\/p>\n It\u2019s also good to be reminded that happiness (and loneliness) doesn\u2019t only depend on external factors or material things and that no matter how bleak things sometimes seem to be, they usually improve.\u00a0 My tattoo on my thigh of a peacock (India\u2019s national bird) reminds me daily of lessons learnt when I got soaking wet in the monsoon rains in India.<\/p>\n If I had been asked just five hours earlier I would have replied yes and I would not have questioned my status quo, but coming at the exact point in time that it did, triggered a landslide of emotions.\u00a0 It were as if a veil was lifted and I could see life as it really was, as my close friends saw it and it debunked all of the excuses that I had been making to myself.<\/p>\n I still receive incredulous looks when I tell my story which is why I am going to bring it back out there and I hope that it will help others, maybe even you, to understand, to question and to bring about changes for the better.<\/p>\n Peacock decoration on a door in Agra, India<\/p>\n<\/div>\n I have been at my loneliest whilst sat on an exquisite beach in Mexico and I have been at my happiest soaked to the skin in the monsoon rains in India.\u00a0 Let me explain.<\/p>\n \u00a0<\/strong>The turquoise Caribbean sea lapped against the hot white sand whilst emerald green hummingbirds darted around the manicured grounds of the five-star gated holiday complex.\u00a0 I lay on a sunbed gently toasting in the sun whilst a waiter brought me iced cocktails and my biggest decision of the day was whether to wander down to the beach or stay next to the pool.<\/p>\n I knew that I was privileged to be able to holiday at such an amazing place, but I was hungry to see what lay beyond the gates and to meet the real people of Mexico.\u00a0 This was back in the day when I was still married and we both worked hard so that we could afford to pay for nice holidays in nice places \u2013 and many of those holidays were to all-inclusive resorts in the Carribean.<\/p>\n luxury and hot white sands in Mexico \u2013 but I felt lonely<\/p>\n<\/div>\n \u00a0<\/p>\n One day on that holiday, my husband and I joined an organised coach trip which took us from our resort to the iconic Chichen Itza site.\u00a0 We drove through towns and villages and we were offered tantalising glimpses of people going about their day to day business.\u00a0 After exploring the ruins I strolled ahead of my husband among the small stalls set up under the trees by local people.\u00a0 This was more like it; I spoke no Spanish yet I felt comfortable here among the people who were doing their best to attract tourists to their handicraft stalls.<\/p>\n I wandered around and I paused, intending to buy a couple of small hand-embroidered items which cost just pennies from a group of ladies who proudly showed off a small baby to me.\u00a0 They were full of smiles as they gestured towards me.\u00a0 Their poverty was obvious and by spending at their stall I might make a small difference, but I was hurried away by my husband who grumbled that we didn\u2019t need to buy the cute little lace handkerchiefs that they had made.<\/p>\n Later that evening, as we sat in our hotel restaurant eating food that the stall holders could only dream of, I was angry for allowing myself to be dissuaded from buying a couple of\u00a0 lace hankies and years of unhappy experiences crowded into my mind.\u00a0 Sat on the beach the next day, I couldn\u2019t stop the tears as I realised that despite being on holiday in such a beautiful place, I was deeply unhappy and I felt lonely in our relationship.\u00a0 I felt unheard and as if my own views of people and of life were unimportant.<\/p>\n It was on that holiday in Mexico that I began to seriously question the path that my life was taking.\u00a0 By the following June I had decided that things couldn\u2019t continue as they were and when I really<\/em> began to question the status quo, my life as I knew it imploded!<\/p>\n If you are enjoying this article please buy me a coffee\u00a0 or two to support me!<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n \u00a0<\/p>\n One year later, in August 2010, I was holidaying at the other end of the scale.\u00a0 I had travelled to India during the monsoon season with the travel company Explore<\/a>.\u00a0 <\/strong>I had been in a pretty bad way emotionally and a friend had suggested that I could do with a break.\u00a0 She recommended Explore and as I was not in any position emotionally to travel solo I took her up on her suggestion and I found myself in India with a small group of 16 travellers.<\/p>\n local travel in India \u2013 trains in the rain<\/p>\n<\/div>\n \u00a0<\/p>\n Advertised as touring India on a shoestring we were travelling on local buses and trains and mostly staying in small low-budget hotels.\u00a0 Whilst we had the security of a travel guide we also had a lot of free time.\u00a0 (Continue reading to the end of the article and discover how I ended up in India when I had intended to book a cycling trip in Italy!)<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n On my second day in Delhi I was riding in a tuk-tuk with three other people \u2013 almost strangers to me at that point \u2013 when flash floods engulfed the city streets.\u00a0 We had decided to use our free time and take a tuk tuk around the city when the rain began to fall.\u00a0 Drains blocked with rubbish soon began to overflow and the waters began to rise.<\/p>\n \u00a0<\/p>\n Our driver ploughed on into the floodwater, oblivious to the fact that it was now well over the sill of his vehicle and it was lapping around our hips on the back seat.\u00a0 I have to admit to being a little scared at that point and then, with our bags raised above our heads, and with smoke belching out of the submerged exhaust, the machine coughed and then stopped.<\/p>\n Assuring us that he would manage to re-start the machine and refusing all offers of help with a push from us, our driver indicated that we should get to some higher ground.\u00a0 We gingerly stepped out and waded through thigh-deep water to take some shelter in a shop doorway.\u00a0 Joining a group of cheerful Indian ladies with their sodden saris trailing in the water I tried to ignore the obvious lumps of sewerage which were floating past (thankfully at that stage I was oblivious to the dysentery that would soon follow).<\/p>\n My group of new friends chatted about the rain and we worried about how we would ever find our way back to our hotel because the unpronounceable street name had been washed clean from the paper on which it had been written.\u00a0 We glumly looked out over the messy, untidy street where the filthy water was running and at the people who were wading through the floods as we tried to squeeze some of the rain water out of our clothes and our hair.<\/p>\n walking in the monsoon rain in India<\/p>\n<\/div>\n \u00a0<\/p>\n On the contrary, the local ladies giggled as they watched some men who had waded out to help push the tuk-tuk up a slope and then like men the world over, gathered around scratching their heads and offered mechanical advice, all of them totally unfazed by their soaked clothes and the water lapping around their knees.<\/p>\n The women explained to us that whilst the floods would cause many deaths (that year was particularly bad), the monsoon rains always brought a welcome relief from the sapping summer heat and it irrigated the parched land.\u00a0 The monsoon season was to be celebrated because the consequences should it ever fail were unimaginable.<\/p>\n The faces of those Indian ladies were beautiful.\u00a0 They radiated happiness, and serenity despite the povery all around and something deep inside me moved emotionally.\u00a0 For the first time in almost a year I felt what I now know to be hope and I stepped out from under the shelter.\u00a0 I raised my face to the deluge allowing the warm water to wash over me and I laughed, imitating the little children who were playing excitedly around us.\u00a0 They had long ago discarded their clothes and their little brown bodies shone as they splashed and laughed in the rain.<\/p>\n street life in India \u2013 life goes on \u2013 despite the rain<\/p>\n<\/div>\n \u00a0<\/p>\n Marooned in the shabby backstreets of Delhi, surrounded by water and sewerage, the jewel-bright colours of the women\u2019s silk saris reminded me of the humming-birds in Mexico. These ladies weren\u2019t focusing on the negatives at all.\u00a0 They would have to wash the mud out of their clothes, their homes would be damp, and travel during the monsoon season would be difficult but they could count their blessings that the rains had come and they laughed and chatted together.<\/p>\n I was in a strange country with nobody who I knew, yet I was not lonely. I was truly happy and like a butterfly emerging from its chrysalis I felt reborn.\u00a0 I was taking back control of my life, and as I began to come out from the shadow of my marriage, my own identity blossomed and I\u00a0decided that I liked the person that I was becoming.\u00a0 I couldn\u2019t wait to see what I was capable of achieving next.<\/p>\n Continue reading below the image and discover how I ended up in India when I had planned to spend 5 days cycling around the vineyards of Tuscany.<\/p>\n If you would like to buy me a coffee to support my writing and therefore support others who might benefit, you can click on this link:\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n If you want to take a holiday but you would prefer not to travel solo I can totally recommend Explore.<\/strong> They are so good that I have actually taken 4 trips with them and I have made many long term friends via them. This link will take you to their website where you can book your dream trip.<\/strong><\/a><\/em><\/p>\n If you would like to read a book which explains how you can become stronger through mindfulness I have just the thing for you.\u00a0 This introduction to the subject of mindfulness might just set you off on your own personal journey of self discovery (click here to purchase)<\/strong><\/a><\/em><\/p>\n Becoming stronger through mindfulness<\/p>\n<\/div>\n \u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n I have already explained that my friend recommended that it might do me good to take a short break away from my problems and she gave me her Explore brochure.\u00a0 I wasn\u2019t in a good place emotionally having recently experienced an emotional breakdown and I had been prescribed some time on anti-depressants.\u00a0 One afternoon, I took my towel and a bottle of cider down to the communal garden of the small apartment block where I was living and I settled down to choose my holiday.<\/p>\n I remember deciding upon a 5 day cycling tour of the vineyards of Tuscany in Italy. A bit of exercise, plenty of pasta and wine and some beautiful European countryside would be the perfect start to my recovery. I don\u2019t remember much else because the cider, the pills and the heat all conspired together and I fell asleep in the sun.<\/p>\n The Taj Mahal \u2013 that booking error possibly changed my life<\/p>\n<\/div>\n \u00a0<\/p>\n It seemed that I got myself back into my apartment and settled down for the night because the next morning I woke up in my bed with a thumping headache and a nagging suspicion that I had booked my holiday.\u00a0 This feeling didn\u2019t go away so I contacted the company and trying to ignore the fact that it must sound totally weird, I asked the operator on the end of the phone to confirm my holiday details for me.<\/p>\n She reeled off my travel date which was just 6 weeks later and she confirmed that I would be flying into Delhi for the start of my two week trip around the Golden Triangle of India.<\/p>\n \u2018You mean Tuscany\u2026for 5 days\u2026.cycling?\u2019\u00a0 I questioned her.<\/p>\n \u2018Nooooo, we spoke yesterday and you definitely reserved and paid in full for your trip to India.\u00a0 You will be leaving in 6 weeks time and you will have a lovely time.\u00a0 It\u2019s one of our best trips!\u2019<\/p>\n Suddenly I had a flash back to the previous afternoon and I remembered waking in the garden and finding that the wind had flipped the page of the magazine over to the India trip. It had obviously attracted me so much that I had gone into my apartment and phoned the company to reserve my spot!<\/p>\n I had several options open to me at that stage.\u00a0 I could<\/p>\n Thanking the operator for her help I put down the phone and wondered how the hell I could go about applying for an Indian visa.<\/p>\n Pin the following image if you would like to keep and share this article<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n \u00a0<\/p>\n The Universe will give you what you need.\u00a0 I didn\u2019t think so at the time but I was certainly ready for India and I needed it at that exact moment in my life.\u00a0 Relax and accept what comes along.<\/p>\n You WILL deal with it.<\/p>\n This post may contain affiliate links and\/or references to our advertisers. We may receive compensation when you click on or make a purchase using such links<\/em><\/p>\n Scarlet Jones Travels is a participant in the Amazon Services LLC Associates Program, an affiliate advertising program designed to provide a means for sites to earn advertising fees by advertising and linking to Amazon.com<\/em><\/p>\n \u00a0<\/p>\n \u00a0<\/p>\n<\/p><\/div>\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I wrote this article just one year after I the breakup of my marriage back in 2010.\u00a0 I booked my trip to India with Explore and I travelled with a wonderful group of people, and whilst it\u2019s a clich\u00e9, India truly was a life-changing experience for me. My children had chosen to cut me out […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[153296],"tags":[4438,171406,171405,8707,2827],"dealstore":[],"offerexpiration":[],"class_list":["post-349631","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-rest-of-the-world","tag-finding","tag-floodwater","tag-hankies","tag-india","tag-lace"],"yoast_head":"\nMy life completely changed when somebody asked me the question. \u2018Are you happy?\u2019<\/h3>\n
Lace hankies and floodwater<\/strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/h2>\n
A luxury holiday in the Caribbean.<\/h2>\n
Finding myself in India\u00a0<\/strong><\/h2>\n
The first stage to my recovery.\u00a0<\/strong><\/h2>\n
I had planned to go to Italy!<\/strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/h2>\n
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